Chapter 150- Sophia’s Perspective

“Hey…why? Why?”

Three days have passed since my big brother disappeared. I’ve been to Adolfo’s territory, but my brother was not there. There was only …… his right hand. I took it home and froze it for safekeeping so it wouldn’t rot.

When I took my brother’s arm and went home, it seems that he was helped by the elf queen who happened to pass by the demons. How could that be a coincidence? And he’s going to study at the Elf Village. There’s no specific period of study. I guess I the reason I couldn’t find my brother was because he was in the Elf Village. I thought about going to the elf village too. But that’s impossible. I don’t have the power to break the barriers in the elf village or get through them. All I can do is wait with my fingers crossed for my brother to come back. I told Shana that my brother was safe. I also told her that the adventuring party would be closed for a while because of my brother’s absence. However, we’re free to do whatever we want on our own.

“Why did this happen?”

I don’t want to be separated from my big brother even for a moment. I really want to be with him at all times, no matter what. The easiest way I can think of to make that happen is to lock him up. Then we can always be together. But that’s not right. I did something terrible to my brother in a previous life. In my previous life, I was the one who crippled my brother’s heart. So in this life, I want to let my brother do what he wants. That’s why I was happy to be a twin who can’t get married and just support my brother nearby.

But even though we are twins and even though he is my brother, we can get married. We are allowed to be together. It drove me crazy. All I wanted to do was support my brother, but I want to be with him. I want to be my brother’s number one. That’s how I felt.

I thought that the broken heart of my brother in my previous life has been healed by his reincarnation. But that’s not the case. His heart is still not completely healed. It’s not so easy to heal a broken and shattered heart, even if you are reincarnated. My older brother now feels that the meaning of existence is to be strong. That’s why he breaks down when he thinks he’s weak. When I won the battle in the park, he almost broke down. At that time, it was okay because I won in a cunning way. But depending on how he lost the battle against the demon, his heart will probably break this time. I know that my brother will think that he has healed his heart from the demon attack. But if he remembers how his heart was broken again, even if he thinks it’s healed, it will break again soon.

Why did I rely on the words of such a god in the first place? Why did I try to make my brother stronger? Why didn’t I try to be strong? If I had the power to transfer two people at the same time, if I had the power to run at the same speed as my brother, if I had the power to kill dragons instantly, if I had the power to kill demons…… I wouldn’t have to be separated from my brother. Then I wouldn’t have had to win in the park battle to make my brother stronger. And he wouldn’t have had to try to get even stronger to maintain his existence.

After three days of not eating, drinking, or sleeping, I finally knew what I had to do. Another idea was to go see the goddess. But if I met her now, she would probably really try to kill me. And then I’d be killed in return. If I really tried to kill her, she would probably kill me back. What I should do is not to take it out on the goddess. I just need to be strong enough to crush any obstacle that stands in my way. I need to be strong enough to crush any unreasonable situation. By the time my brother comes back… no, I’ll be strong enough to go to him. I’ll get enough absolute power that no one will be able to complain about my actions. That way, I can support my brother at all times and stay with him forever.

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